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Something from my life again~~
Mar. 8th, 2012 09:25 pm( Ramblings of a lazy writer )
Also - I find it funny that everytime I post a note here, this song comes on my player xD
( Ramblings of a lazy writer )
Also - I find it funny that everytime I post a note here, this song comes on my player xD
Boring life, nothing to see here!
Sep. 8th, 2011 12:22 am1. I'm horrible with updates on journals, I know it. Especially when I find a new shiny internet site (like tumblr recently)
2. I'm a fandom whore. Between each updates I'm jumping on so many different fandoms that I neraly got the whipslash on the last one. Or it might be the fault of the fact that First Class kind of sneaked up on me.
3. I NEVER finish what I started.
- Actually, I seriously hope that it's not true, because I'm finally writing some fanfic and I would really like to finish this.
4. On Monday I'm going to a University. In a different country.
- Actually, even right now, I'm kind of sitting in an armchair in the friggin Netherlands instead of my safe, Polish sofa, because I decided to visit my dad while I'm already leaving the country.
5. I'm scared shit. I mean, seriously, what do you do in a whole new country? What was I thinking not only applying to go there, but also accepting? That was some really insane amount of crazy I was on.
6. And what with my fear of new people? What do I do when someone try to make friends with me?
- I would probably worship them, because I like having friends and no many people enjoy my kind of crazy. At least not many people that I already knew.
7. My little half-brother is the most adorable thing on the planet. Ok, he IS a little annoying, but it mostly comes from the fact that he's not even three and have too much energy and spoiling parents, but seriosuly - He just stood in the living room today and sang: "Sylwia (that's me! HI!) is lovely~" over and over. And he's so cute all the time that I don't know if I should make Awww~noises or dolphin noises or just snuggle him until he can't breath. Probably not the last one. And he speaks in a weird mish-mash of Polish and Netherlandian (?) <--- LOL, sorry people from here, I literally have no idea what you language is called like and I'm too lazy to look it up.
8. FUCK! I'M GOING TO A NEW COUNTRY TO STUDY AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
9. I think I mentioned the last one already. Oh well.
10. No idea what to write anymore~ And my dad is standing over me and reminding me that I have to sleep sometimes and it would probably be good time to start since it's half past midnight and all that shit.
Goodnight :)
2. I'm a fandom whore. Between each updates I'm jumping on so many different fandoms that I neraly got the whipslash on the last one. Or it might be the fault of the fact that First Class kind of sneaked up on me.
3. I NEVER finish what I started.
- Actually, I seriously hope that it's not true, because I'm finally writing some fanfic and I would really like to finish this.
4. On Monday I'm going to a University. In a different country.
- Actually, even right now, I'm kind of sitting in an armchair in the friggin Netherlands instead of my safe, Polish sofa, because I decided to visit my dad while I'm already leaving the country.
5. I'm scared shit. I mean, seriously, what do you do in a whole new country? What was I thinking not only applying to go there, but also accepting? That was some really insane amount of crazy I was on.
6. And what with my fear of new people? What do I do when someone try to make friends with me?
- I would probably worship them, because I like having friends and no many people enjoy my kind of crazy. At least not many people that I already knew.
7. My little half-brother is the most adorable thing on the planet. Ok, he IS a little annoying, but it mostly comes from the fact that he's not even three and have too much energy and spoiling parents, but seriosuly - He just stood in the living room today and sang: "Sylwia (that's me! HI!) is lovely~" over and over. And he's so cute all the time that I don't know if I should make Awww~noises or dolphin noises or just snuggle him until he can't breath. Probably not the last one. And he speaks in a weird mish-mash of Polish and Netherlandian (?) <--- LOL, sorry people from here, I literally have no idea what you language is called like and I'm too lazy to look it up.
8. FUCK! I'M GOING TO A NEW COUNTRY TO STUDY AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
9. I think I mentioned the last one already. Oh well.
10. No idea what to write anymore~ And my dad is standing over me and reminding me that I have to sleep sometimes and it would probably be good time to start since it's half past midnight and all that shit.
Goodnight :)
ASDGFGTRYHKJGF
May. 21st, 2011 01:51 am1. My mom found out that her ex-boyfriend has a new girl and got jealous. She suddenly realised that she still loves him and wants to be with him, no matter that he's an useless douche who does nothing the whole day and clearly doesn't deserve such a woman like her. So she started communicating with him anew ignoring mine and my sister's complaints and advices to not. And apparently he was all on board for them getting back together. When mom broke it up with him previously he didn't really understand why and for a very long time tried to win her back. It seems that all it took was to find himself some new girlfriend. The girlfriend in question, Lena, found my mom's number and decided that no bitch will be stealing her honey-po. So she started to call and SMS mom with fairly threatening messages. I saw them and frankly, apart from the fact that I know she's in her thirties, I could swear she goes to secondary school. Bad spelling, stupid sayings and the whole content was on a fourteen year old level. And it seems that the boyfriend is on Lena's side (she even told him that my mom called her a bitch, which is true, but only after all the shitty messages). They were supposed to meet tomorrow for coffee (mom and bf) but he doesn't pick up his phone and they probably won't. Mother got all depressed and started saying how everyone abandons her, how she is stupid and worthless and nobody needs her and how it would be better if she just died. My sister tried to tell her that we would be miss her, not to mention how we would be devastated if something happened to her, because she's our only parent and we love her very much, but the only response was that we would get a lot of money from Insurance and moved on. Low blow, mom, low blow. We both kind of stopped talking to her for awhile, until she get her head out of her ass and apologized for even thinking like that. I understand that she has a lot of self esteem problems, or rather she doesn't really have self esteem at all, but doubting the fact that we love her and don't want her to die was a little too much. Hope tomorrow will bring some happy changes.
2. Dad's in the country. Hooray. He was supposed to call since yesterday and pick a date with us but clearly he has more important things than his daughters. Like always. I don't really know if I even want to meet with him. I mean, I fixed the e-mail communication with him only just recently and I don't want to screw it up on some real life meeting. I have more hope to get an e-mail than to see him in person usually. But if I won't go than he'll get offended either way. No winning situation.
3. I got an email from Dr. Marta that says that few places in University of Derby got free and that I have a chance of getting one. And don't get me wrong, this was my first choice and if I got this chance in January I would be ecstatic, but... Well,but. I got a place in Middlesex and I kind of got used to the idea that I will be studying in London. And now I'm not sure. I don't even know what kind of conditions will I get in Derby if I'll want to go there. The Middlesex situation is clear already, I know what they expect of me, what kind of loggings are nearby and all that stuff. I'm not even sure if I got enough points on my Matura exams to get to MS, not to mention Derby. But, goddamnit, Derby has a perfect joint-honours degree that I've dreamt of. And what that it slightly more far away than London, I'm still moving to the whole new country, why does few kilometres makes a difference. Should I leave my perfect dream of studies just because I'm scared? I have a weird feeling that the answer will be yes. Well, nobody will help me decide (literally, my family knows jack squat about it and both of schools are the same for them), I'll just have to think about it for awhile. The problem is, I don't have time to think about it.
4. Ending on a slightly happier note, I got into NCIS fandom recently. Well, maybe not a fandom yet. I'm watching the series from the first episode currently (even though I'm familiar with it, it runs in TV, but sometimes I don't catch it in time). I read some fics also and commented (Wow, yeah, I'm writing comments. Shocking, isn't it?) and even got myself an Archive of our Own account so I could bookmark the ones I liked the most. It's mostly slash, because that's what I always read, but I care more about original idea and the style of writing than about pairing or rating (although sometimes it's nice to read a stupid PWP) . I'm mostly bored right now, because I finished high school on the start of May and still didn't find a job (I'm looking, but it's hard) so lots of free time on my hands. Maybe that will push me to write something finally. It would be nice warm-up before university. You know, since I've chosen to study Creative Writing.
Hope you have a nice dreams
Bisous
K.
2. Dad's in the country. Hooray. He was supposed to call since yesterday and pick a date with us but clearly he has more important things than his daughters. Like always. I don't really know if I even want to meet with him. I mean, I fixed the e-mail communication with him only just recently and I don't want to screw it up on some real life meeting. I have more hope to get an e-mail than to see him in person usually. But if I won't go than he'll get offended either way. No winning situation.
3. I got an email from Dr. Marta that says that few places in University of Derby got free and that I have a chance of getting one. And don't get me wrong, this was my first choice and if I got this chance in January I would be ecstatic, but... Well,but. I got a place in Middlesex and I kind of got used to the idea that I will be studying in London. And now I'm not sure. I don't even know what kind of conditions will I get in Derby if I'll want to go there. The Middlesex situation is clear already, I know what they expect of me, what kind of loggings are nearby and all that stuff. I'm not even sure if I got enough points on my Matura exams to get to MS, not to mention Derby. But, goddamnit, Derby has a perfect joint-honours degree that I've dreamt of. And what that it slightly more far away than London, I'm still moving to the whole new country, why does few kilometres makes a difference. Should I leave my perfect dream of studies just because I'm scared? I have a weird feeling that the answer will be yes. Well, nobody will help me decide (literally, my family knows jack squat about it and both of schools are the same for them), I'll just have to think about it for awhile. The problem is, I don't have time to think about it.
4. Ending on a slightly happier note, I got into NCIS fandom recently. Well, maybe not a fandom yet. I'm watching the series from the first episode currently (even though I'm familiar with it, it runs in TV, but sometimes I don't catch it in time). I read some fics also and commented (Wow, yeah, I'm writing comments. Shocking, isn't it?) and even got myself an Archive of our Own account so I could bookmark the ones I liked the most. It's mostly slash, because that's what I always read, but I care more about original idea and the style of writing than about pairing or rating (although sometimes it's nice to read a stupid PWP) . I'm mostly bored right now, because I finished high school on the start of May and still didn't find a job (I'm looking, but it's hard) so lots of free time on my hands. Maybe that will push me to write something finally. It would be nice warm-up before university. You know, since I've chosen to study Creative Writing.
Hope you have a nice dreams
Bisous
K.
Writers block
May. 21st, 2011 12:53 am[Error: unknown template qotd]
I can't believe bitches cut out my answer. I don't know if I should rage or laugh.
So like I said before someone saw it fit to delete my musings, I would like my pirate hideout to be on a remote island somewhere on an open ocean (or sea, I'm not that picky). It could have had some cannibalistic tribe on it, but on the other side of island than my palace would be. Or rather a hut. Because clearly, I wouldn't be very successful pirate. I would often got in trouble, but wouldn't have many treasures to level the bad luck out. So I would have a pretty hut between the roots of the trees on my island when I would go to relax and forget about bad happenings. If I had some treasure, I would be one of the weird pirates that don't spend it but rather prefer to bury it instead and guard it in this and the next life. I would be just so happy to win something that I wouldn't want to let it go. And I would put a curse on it so even after my death nobody could touch it. And the hut would be very homey and warm, with lots of pillows and tea (I hate alcohol, so no rum for me).
Considering all that, I wouldn't be very piratey, would I? (Screw you firefox, piratey's still a word!)
Have a pretty picture of the island now:
( Pretty Island Picture )
I can't believe bitches cut out my answer. I don't know if I should rage or laugh.
So like I said before someone saw it fit to delete my musings, I would like my pirate hideout to be on a remote island somewhere on an open ocean (or sea, I'm not that picky). It could have had some cannibalistic tribe on it, but on the other side of island than my palace would be. Or rather a hut. Because clearly, I wouldn't be very successful pirate. I would often got in trouble, but wouldn't have many treasures to level the bad luck out. So I would have a pretty hut between the roots of the trees on my island when I would go to relax and forget about bad happenings. If I had some treasure, I would be one of the weird pirates that don't spend it but rather prefer to bury it instead and guard it in this and the next life. I would be just so happy to win something that I wouldn't want to let it go. And I would put a curse on it so even after my death nobody could touch it. And the hut would be very homey and warm, with lots of pillows and tea (I hate alcohol, so no rum for me).
Considering all that, I wouldn't be very piratey, would I? (Screw you firefox, piratey's still a word!)
Have a pretty picture of the island now:
( Pretty Island Picture )
Tests I felt like doing
Apr. 12th, 2011 01:03 pmYour Love is Purple |
 When you love someone, their life becomes your life. And you want to help them be the best person possible. You are a natural visionary, and you tend to be the teacher in your romantic relationships. You have a lot of wisdom to impart. You are inspiring and powerful. Many people look up to you, and you often fall in love with those who admire you. It's hard for you to find someone who's your equal. And to be honest, you enjoy having a bit of a power imbalance in your relationships. |
The truth in results: 7/10
| Greed: | Very Low | |
| Gluttony: | Medium | |
| Wrath: | Low | |
| Sloth: | High | |
| Envy: | Very Low | |
| Lust: | Medium | |
| Pride: | Low |
Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
The truth in results: 9/10( Reszta testów )
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Jan. 27th, 2011 09:48 pmHa ha. I officially suck at life. I was going to post here something long time ago but I forgot. Yeah...
I'm starting to believe maybe my English isn't as bad as I constantly think it is. I just got accepted to the finals of English contest so this is something. The winner gets a scholarship in the best (and elite) linguistic university in Poland but I don't care about that very much.Actually I do, but when I'll lose it's easier to when you didn't wanted the prize too badly. I just wish I could win this for a simple pleasure of winning. I've never really won anything. I got a second place in national writing competition when I was in middle school but I've never got the first place in anything. I think it would be nice.
The school will soon finish with the all exams-that-are-not-really-exams. It's supposed to get us ready for the real ones that will be in May but all it's doing for me is rising my stress levels. Seriously, I know I have to review the material, they don't need to pressure me into writing more bloody difficult exams that I already have to write. It's a little not fair.
I tried drinking a tea in an English fashion - with milk and sugar, but I decided that's it's not really for my tastes. I prefer much more my cup with a sugar and some lemon juice sometimes. Or honey and lemon when I've a cold. That's really weird because English tea is the only one I can actually drink when I'm on a plane. So I don't know why it doesn't suit me so much in normal conditions.
Speaking of the planes - I've a plan to go to Italy on my winter holidays. I just have to book a hotel and a plane tomorrow when I'll have time and I'll be set. I have a voucher that will pay for the hotel which is good because I wouldn't afford it in any other way. My mom promised to pay for a transportation so the only thing I will have to pay with my pocket money for is food and attractions.And souvenirs. Someone should ban me from buying anything or I go bankrupt.
If I will have any money left after the trip I'm going to buy a new edition of the Sims series - Sims: Medieval Age. From what I could see in a trailer it has a beautiful graphic and many interesting option. And I don't think I need a first version of The Sims 3 for it to go running so it's all good for me.
While I am at the subject of medieval ages, I discovered recently a great show called "Merlin". I know it's been on air for ages, but surprisingly enough I've never before got a wind on it. Until the New Years Break when they showed it on AXN. Me and my mother were enchanted from the first scenes and we've been watching it ever since. I'm completely enamoured with two main characters, Gaius' eyebrows and Merlin's ears and expressions. They are so adorable.My mother thinks I'm stupid when I start talking like this so I don't even have someone to share my glee with.
The other show I recently rediscovered is Smallville. I have to force myself to watch it from the half of the season three though. I hate how they ruined the friendship between Clark and Lex because they were so good together and for each other. In theory I know it had to happen because otherwise Superman comics and films would have no sense whatsoever but I still can't seem to easily accept it. The only motivation I have is Jensen in season 4.
All for today folks, hope you had a good day, unlike me who is sick to the stomach and still refuse to stop eating fast-food.
Nighty-night
I'm starting to believe maybe my English isn't as bad as I constantly think it is. I just got accepted to the finals of English contest so this is something. The winner gets a scholarship in the best (and elite) linguistic university in Poland but I don't care about that very much.
The school will soon finish with the all exams-that-are-not-really-exams. It's supposed to get us ready for the real ones that will be in May but all it's doing for me is rising my stress levels. Seriously, I know I have to review the material, they don't need to pressure me into writing more bloody difficult exams that I already have to write. It's a little not fair.
I tried drinking a tea in an English fashion - with milk and sugar, but I decided that's it's not really for my tastes. I prefer much more my cup with a sugar and some lemon juice sometimes. Or honey and lemon when I've a cold. That's really weird because English tea is the only one I can actually drink when I'm on a plane. So I don't know why it doesn't suit me so much in normal conditions.
Speaking of the planes - I've a plan to go to Italy on my winter holidays. I just have to book a hotel and a plane tomorrow when I'll have time and I'll be set. I have a voucher that will pay for the hotel which is good because I wouldn't afford it in any other way. My mom promised to pay for a transportation so the only thing I will have to pay with my pocket money for is food and attractions.
If I will have any money left after the trip I'm going to buy a new edition of the Sims series - Sims: Medieval Age. From what I could see in a trailer it has a beautiful graphic and many interesting option. And I don't think I need a first version of The Sims 3 for it to go running so it's all good for me.
While I am at the subject of medieval ages, I discovered recently a great show called "Merlin". I know it's been on air for ages, but surprisingly enough I've never before got a wind on it. Until the New Years Break when they showed it on AXN. Me and my mother were enchanted from the first scenes and we've been watching it ever since. I'm completely enamoured with two main characters, Gaius' eyebrows and Merlin's ears and expressions. They are so adorable.
The other show I recently rediscovered is Smallville. I have to force myself to watch it from the half of the season three though. I hate how they ruined the friendship between Clark and Lex because they were so good together and for each other. In theory I know it had to happen because otherwise Superman comics and films would have no sense whatsoever but I still can't seem to easily accept it. The only motivation I have is Jensen in season 4.
All for today folks, hope you had a good day, unlike me who is sick to the stomach and still refuse to stop eating fast-food.
Nighty-night
I'm done. Fucking done.
She wants the perfect daughter that never feels anything other than happiness, always around being obedient and don't have her own dreams?
Fine. Let's her have her.
I'm just so tired of it all. I give up. I don't have the strength to fight for myself any more.
And this rambling is probably pathetic, but I don't care.
It might be the last entry in the long while.
Bye.
She wants the perfect daughter that never feels anything other than happiness, always around being obedient and don't have her own dreams?
Fine. Let's her have her.
I'm just so tired of it all. I give up. I don't have the strength to fight for myself any more.
And this rambling is probably pathetic, but I don't care.
It might be the last entry in the long while.
Bye.
AFGDSSK@!$#%KSDFG
Nov. 15th, 2010 08:24 pmI swear to God that if my sister tell me one more time that I act like teenager emo I WILL end her.
That is exactly problem with our daily society - the problems of psyche are so uncommon and sometimes not even exactly true that when someone has a real problem they're just brushing it off as something not important. I kind of hate it. Especially since it's me that has a problem. But I'm not going to go into details here, I have a therapist for that and she's an amazing women who clearly opens my eyes to the things that I'd rather not see - you know, ignorance is bliss and what not - but that will also possibly help with handling my life in the future when I'll be completely self-sufficient.
I still haven't written to the women from scholarship and I kind of hate myself for that, but it's not that I'm still scared. It's more of a matter that I don't know what to write to her. I have no idea what part of my life would make me more worthy getting they're support than hundreds of other students writing to them. I'll have to think of it really hard. And in the near future.
And to make the matter worse, I didn't have the time (and guts) to watch new episodes of SPN. My place in the house is occupied by my mum's off and on boyfriend and I had to install myself in my old room (read - in my sisters room) which not only doesn't have TV good enough to connect to my laptop (I gave up watching anything on it long time ago - too small monitor) but also has my sister in it - which isn't doing anything to improve my mood.
But I did watch the Weekend's at Bobby's sometime ago and even if I didn't write commentary - I'm not sure if I will - I loved it so much that even a thought about it makes me squeel in delight. I love Jim Beaver <3
That's all for now, gtg, bye :)
That is exactly problem with our daily society - the problems of psyche are so uncommon and sometimes not even exactly true that when someone has a real problem they're just brushing it off as something not important. I kind of hate it. Especially since it's me that has a problem. But I'm not going to go into details here, I have a therapist for that and she's an amazing women who clearly opens my eyes to the things that I'd rather not see - you know, ignorance is bliss and what not - but that will also possibly help with handling my life in the future when I'll be completely self-sufficient.
I still haven't written to the women from scholarship and I kind of hate myself for that, but it's not that I'm still scared. It's more of a matter that I don't know what to write to her. I have no idea what part of my life would make me more worthy getting they're support than hundreds of other students writing to them. I'll have to think of it really hard. And in the near future.
And to make the matter worse, I didn't have the time (and guts) to watch new episodes of SPN. My place in the house is occupied by my mum's off and on boyfriend and I had to install myself in my old room (read - in my sisters room) which not only doesn't have TV good enough to connect to my laptop (I gave up watching anything on it long time ago - too small monitor) but also has my sister in it - which isn't doing anything to improve my mood.
But I did watch the Weekend's at Bobby's sometime ago and even if I didn't write commentary - I'm not sure if I will - I loved it so much that even a thought about it makes me squeel in delight. I love Jim Beaver <3
That's all for now, gtg, bye :)
I really, really wanted to write a reaction to 6.04 'cause that episode my dears was pure awesomeness but I won't. Reason is very simple and banal and makes me annoyed, cranky and whiny - Ima sick. And when I'm sick I feel like something tried to maul me and then hide in a very small hole. I get back to here when I'll feel better.
Jared's healing powers O^o
Oct. 16th, 2010 02:15 pmOkay, So I read my first post on here and couldn't help but be a little surprised at how many things changed since that time. There are lots of differences in me now from me then, but I kinda posted it, just to share something that shocked me still when I realized it:
I wrote that I have aversion to tall people and that was always true. Even when I was a kid (and I was very short and scrawny kid) I hated people taller than me. It was a reason why I had few friends and didn't talk to my cousin until I was more or less her height. In middle school and later that went on a little smaller scale 'cause I started maturing and noticing that beside some taller people I look actually good and not pathetic something. And then came recent year and my obsession with Supernatural. I think Jared healed me from my aversion. I adore him so much that I not only didn't really noticed that he is so much taller than me but when I did I liked it very, very much. And it's not only him. Now I don't mind anyone being even super tall. I've never known that he had magical healing powers that worked over distance, but Good God, he is good.
Yeah, now that I'm done being crazy, I'll go and wait quietly for 6.04 to upload itself on my computer.
Bye, bye =)
I wrote that I have aversion to tall people and that was always true. Even when I was a kid (and I was very short and scrawny kid) I hated people taller than me. It was a reason why I had few friends and didn't talk to my cousin until I was more or less her height. In middle school and later that went on a little smaller scale 'cause I started maturing and noticing that beside some taller people I look actually good and not pathetic something. And then came recent year and my obsession with Supernatural. I think Jared healed me from my aversion. I adore him so much that I not only didn't really noticed that he is so much taller than me but when I did I liked it very, very much. And it's not only him. Now I don't mind anyone being even super tall. I've never known that he had magical healing powers that worked over distance, but Good God, he is good.
Yeah, now that I'm done being crazy, I'll go and wait quietly for 6.04 to upload itself on my computer.
Bye, bye =)
I had the strangest dream today. Not only I wasn't even in it but from what I can remember (and surprisingly I can remember quite a lot) the main stars was Jared and Jensen. I haven't had a dream about celebrities since I was around 13 years old and that was 5 years ago. I can't recall every detail (obviously - that's a common problem with dreams) but I know that it revolved around them trying to save someone important in dreams world (hell if I remember exactly who it was) which transformed into saving the whole world from the apocalypse brought on Earth by an evil half-woman, half-broccoli (I swear I like these, I really do!) and her army of minions who were plants of some sorts but looked like ordinary people. There was Bobby who kind of was a leader of the research stuff and find out about where the evil queen is and how to kill her. And Mary. Winchester. Who later kind of ended up being Bobby's girlfriend. Never before I thought about that pairing but it really would be cute. She sat beside his bed in hospital after an attack of some viscous plant-people that infected him with some sort of alien mutated virus which made his head go extremely big and purple, every time he opened his mouth his now enormous tongue would loll out and it was full of strange symbols. I'm pretty sure he got healthy once the evil was killed but while the weird illness lasted it was quite a sight. The adventure started with J2 being pirates on a ship in a mountains by the way which alone is pretty crazy. They found the lair, got in the fight with the newest line of minions and in the meantime there was this queens favourite - a girl (real bitch, very arrogant and full of shit) with brown hair and in glasses who died in quite gruesome way. I mean, by this point I knew (actually I realized that only after waking up, but still) that something is wrong with my subconscious, but I made Jensen rip her head off with his bare hands. Yeah, I know that she was really a plant, but seriously I was grossed out and highly disturbed by remembering that bit a whole day. And there was the ending scene. When Jensen was a hero who saved Jared from the evil broccoli chasing him. On a line. Like a Tarzan. In a middle of some kind of cave. Yeah, I kind of know. And that's a last bit which made my friend laugh so hard when I told her about it that she almost fell off a chair in a maths class (fortunately a teacher was absent). I'm pretty sure that was because I can't get the image of half-dressed, sweaty, muscular Jared as Sam in 6.03 out of my head. And that beat of local news about the politic who wanted to make people vote for him in elections by giving them free carrots on the street. Just because his last name is 'Marchewka' which means carrot in Polish. His slogan is "Every Carrot is good for you" XD. But back to the point, I'm sure you can guess when I'm heading with this. Yes, I made the evil queen change Jay into half-carrot. Naked half-carrot. There wasn't really much more to see than on a show considering that his lower half was a carrot stick, but he was all orange and jumpy when he tried to escaped the queen. Good for him, her lower half was a broccoli.
Yes, I know I should go to the shrink. That's exactly what I'm doing every Wednesday.
BTW - I decided that I'll be writing her whenever I fell like it, about variety of things. Sometime it would be something like this, sometime some recipe that I found especially yummy (I love baking and most of the things works out when I'm making them ;)), sometime it will be my reaction to episode of some show I watch (most often than not it will probably be Supernatural), sometime something from my life and if I stop being so lazy maybe even my writing.
Well, that's all I have for today. Bye, bye =D
Yes, I know I should go to the shrink. That's exactly what I'm doing every Wednesday.
BTW - I decided that I'll be writing her whenever I fell like it, about variety of things. Sometime it would be something like this, sometime some recipe that I found especially yummy (I love baking and most of the things works out when I'm making them ;)), sometime it will be my reaction to episode of some show I watch (most often than not it will probably be Supernatural), sometime something from my life and if I stop being so lazy maybe even my writing.
Well, that's all I have for today. Bye, bye =D
Yesterday's crisis is tomorrow's joke :)
Jul. 13th, 2010 02:38 pmThe title of the post shamelessly copied from the T-shirt I'm wearing currently 'cause I decided that it's cool. At least the saying is 'cause apparently whoever operates heaven right now decided to boil us all in our very own skins. It's nearly 40 degree of Celsius outside now which is for Poland summer extremely high, we don't get so high temperatures usually, but this doesn't seem to matter right now. My brain is one big melty goo and every time I'm trying to write something (and I am, for the first time since about a year) it ends as something literally, grammatically and all kinds of things incorrect. So I gave up. For now. Something has been bugging me for some time and is rare occurrence that plot bunny came to me so I have to hurry up and do something with it or it will just decide to leave and that would be a shame.
The electrical fan is working since morning on the highest power and I suddenly realized that it's not fair that the air conditioning is forbidden to install in our apartment. Stupid corporations and theirs stupid CEOs.
If I won't succeed in writing anything I'm going to watch the episodes of SPN that I have left. I stopped about ninth episode in fifth season 'cause I got to emotional and my mom told me that till I won't get a grip of myself she's banning me from using her TV. Stupid mom. And if not I'm just going to melt.
OH GOD! I NEED ICE OR SOMETHING OR I'M JUST GOING TO DIE!!!!
ASDFGRGREF@#@%$^%
Oh, and by the way: yesterday I bought (and paid a little to much in comparison to how much I could pay in just another shop) Assassins Creed II. If someone's have tips to the game, please feel free to share.
One more thing: If this song keeps playing over and over again I'm going to go and kill something 'cause I already can't get rid of it from my head x(
The electrical fan is working since morning on the highest power and I suddenly realized that it's not fair that the air conditioning is forbidden to install in our apartment. Stupid corporations and theirs stupid CEOs.
If I won't succeed in writing anything I'm going to watch the episodes of SPN that I have left. I stopped about ninth episode in fifth season 'cause I got to emotional and my mom told me that till I won't get a grip of myself she's banning me from using her TV. Stupid mom. And if not I'm just going to melt.
OH GOD! I NEED ICE OR SOMETHING OR I'M JUST GOING TO DIE!!!!
ASDFGRGREF@#@%$^%
Oh, and by the way: yesterday I bought (and paid a little to much in comparison to how much I could pay in just another shop) Assassins Creed II. If someone's have tips to the game, please feel free to share.
One more thing: If this song keeps playing over and over again I'm going to go and kill something 'cause I already can't get rid of it from my head x(
Umm.... yeah.
Jul. 9th, 2010 08:34 pmI just realized that for millions of hours I'm spending every day on livejournal, I haven't exactly written anything in, well.... a long time. Not that nothing interesting happened. I think it's because of more my laziness and inability to write a proper sentence when I'm not really feeling like that, but whatever. What's in past, is in past and I'm writing right friggin now sooo..... yeah.
From the last time I wrote the school year ended of course which is totally awesome fact and nothing can persuade me otherwise.(Well maybe the thing that for the most time I cannot for my life tell what day it is - for some unfathomable reason it always Wednesday for me.) I'm just sitting there, doing nothing and not caring of a thing in the world. Well, maybe that's not true. I still have to eat and clean the house 'cause my mom says so. But beside that I'm just relaxing, reading tons of fics and watching Supernatural. And drinking non-alcoholic, caramel beer - which is epic. Seriously.
Speaking of epic and of fiction - I've read recently the most amazing work of literature someone without the writer license could conjure. Really. It's called "The Assumption of the Winchesters (Plus Bobby)" - even the title is awesome. It's posted on deancastiel community and anyone who's fan of SPN should go and read it and I'm sure they're going to love it.
Oh, what the hell. Here, have a link: community.livejournal.com/deancastiel/1619118.html It'll be easier for you to read and love it that way.
( Read )
Yep, I think it'll be the end for today. I kind of drained myself on the last part and it's not cool.
From the last time I wrote the school year ended of course which is totally awesome fact and nothing can persuade me otherwise.
Speaking of epic and of fiction - I've read recently the most amazing work of literature someone without the writer license could conjure. Really. It's called "The Assumption of the Winchesters (Plus Bobby)" - even the title is awesome. It's posted on deancastiel community and anyone who's fan of SPN should go and read it and I'm sure they're going to love it.
Oh, what the hell. Here, have a link: community.livejournal.com/deancastiel/1619118.html It'll be easier for you to read and love it that way.
( Read )
Yep, I think it'll be the end for today. I kind of drained myself on the last part and it's not cool.
Writer's block II
May. 7th, 2010 06:09 pm[Error: unknown template qotd]
Okay, so I'm bored, my livejournal editor disappeared and the answer pretty interesting for me so why not answer it? ;)
Yes, I do believe in UFO's. More from my gut feeling 'cause there aren't very reliable evidences out there so you know... And beside that - If there are so many galactics, solar systems and planets so why can't there be somewhere one with the life on it? I don't see ever one reason against it. And come on! The life's more exciting if you believe that there is something out there and maybe even want to visit you (to make experiments on you probably but that beside the point).
Today we got back to school for ONE DAY after the long break. The break was caused by the exams the the last year has been writing, we get free days as to not disturb them. From what I know the exercises were pretty easy, but what do I know? And it's friggin ridiculous to make us go for ONE DAY and than give us weekend once again. Not to mention that I, being as smart as I am, got up and went to school one hour too early, because of the wrongly read new class schedule. And I forgot my report for geography and I don't know if my teacher will take it on the later date. I can only hope so.
All in all the day wasn't too bad in itself. It's raining almost the whole time, so the air is refreshing and I like such a weather. I got inspired by the rain. Maybe I will write something today. If I of course defeat my laziness which to be honest isn't very likely.
I tried to purchase a paid account here but it seems that I can't do it without my mom's credit card so I'll have to wait until she gets back from work.
And I'm buying my birthday present today so YaY for me ;P
Okay, so I'm bored, my livejournal editor disappeared and the answer pretty interesting for me so why not answer it? ;)
Yes, I do believe in UFO's. More from my gut feeling 'cause there aren't very reliable evidences out there so you know... And beside that - If there are so many galactics, solar systems and planets so why can't there be somewhere one with the life on it? I don't see ever one reason against it. And come on! The life's more exciting if you believe that there is something out there and maybe even want to visit you (to make experiments on you probably but that beside the point).
Today we got back to school for ONE DAY after the long break. The break was caused by the exams the the last year has been writing, we get free days as to not disturb them. From what I know the exercises were pretty easy, but what do I know? And it's friggin ridiculous to make us go for ONE DAY and than give us weekend once again. Not to mention that I, being as smart as I am, got up and went to school one hour too early, because of the wrongly read new class schedule. And I forgot my report for geography and I don't know if my teacher will take it on the later date. I can only hope so.
All in all the day wasn't too bad in itself. It's raining almost the whole time, so the air is refreshing and I like such a weather. I got inspired by the rain. Maybe I will write something today. If I of course defeat my laziness which to be honest isn't very likely.
I tried to purchase a paid account here but it seems that I can't do it without my mom's credit card so I'll have to wait until she gets back from work.
And I'm buying my birthday present today so YaY for me ;P
I'm trying out publishing the photos and if I can do stuff like this here. The photo (if it shows) was made by me on the trip to the Malbork some time ago so if you wan to save it and use it somewhere or just save it, just give me a word so I'll now that you like it :)
Just the little update
May. 4th, 2010 07:46 pmSo I finally reread and rewrite the CG meme that I did some time ago. I'm pretty sure there's still plenty of mistakes but I can't see them myself and I don't have anyone to check it for me so it have to stay as it is now. Not to mention something with the format constantly goes wrong and it looks like shit. I'm quite exasperated because of this. I've been trying to fix it for nearly an hour but without any effect.
From the other news I've been going to the therapist for some time now and I think she made a breakpoint recently on my opinion on myself. She help me realize that I'm not an hopeless idiot and gave me confidence to reach for my dreams. Because of her I'm nearly sure that I'll try to enter some university in Britain even though it'll require lots of work from me and it'll be my first so risky decision in life. I'll think about it some more but I probably won't change my mind.
Recently I got into Supernatural fandom and watched whole Season 4, some episodes from Season 5 and have planned to start all over again like any normal person from season 1.
I started planning the family dinner for my 18th birthday and realized that I'll have to make two 'cause of number of my family members. I just hope that my dad will come.
On that depressing note I'm ending and going back to reading SPN fiction.
From the other news I've been going to the therapist for some time now and I think she made a breakpoint recently on my opinion on myself. She help me realize that I'm not an hopeless idiot and gave me confidence to reach for my dreams. Because of her I'm nearly sure that I'll try to enter some university in Britain even though it'll require lots of work from me and it'll be my first so risky decision in life. I'll think about it some more but I probably won't change my mind.
Recently I got into Supernatural fandom and watched whole Season 4, some episodes from Season 5 and have planned to start all over again like any normal person from season 1.
I started planning the family dinner for my 18th birthday and realized that I'll have to make two 'cause of number of my family members. I just hope that my dad will come.
On that depressing note I'm ending and going back to reading SPN fiction.
Well, haven't been here for a long time, have I? ^^' It's not like something superb important or interesting happened so it's not like I had a reason to write. Not that I have one now. Right now I'm in the library my aunt works because I'm taking part of the National Business Day. So I said I will spend the entire day in this library and learn how to be a librarian. Not my highest dream, I tell you. And to be honest somehow around 20 minutes ago I finished already learning so now I'm sitting and be bored xD Auntie says that's always like this here. One more reason to not work in such a place in the future. In half an hour I'll be going home partially because there's nothing to do here and partially because I have a meeting with my psychologist today. And it doesn't mean I'm crazy, you know? I just have few personality problems, like having no confidence in myself and being afraid of talking to people. Everyone has such small problems, lie this, right? Right? I was gonna kill my boredom and now I'm depressed. Great. I think I might write something today when I'll be back home, and maybe I will publish it here. It's not like someone will read it.
Writer's block
Feb. 8th, 2010 01:04 pm[Error: unknown template qotd]
Well, I was going to just write about what happened in the past week but when I log-in I noticed that question and couldn't help myself.
Answer: For starters, no, I am not in a relationship. Currently I'm flirting with one guy (Yay! I'm talking to people!) so I probably send him Valentine's wishes. And of course like every year, I'm going to make a little gifts for my mother and my sister, being it sweets, flowers or some cute drawings, I don't know myself yet. (If I will draw something there is highly possibility that I will publish it here ^^') I don't celebrate my single status 'cause for me it isn't exactly something that should be celebrated. Every person in the world have their soulmate and finding her or him is in my opinion very important. To celebrate Valentines somehow here, meaning in the Internet, I might write something with the holiday accent. Or not, depends on my mood :P
And that's it.
Well, I was going to just write about what happened in the past week but when I log-in I noticed that question and couldn't help myself.
Answer: For starters, no, I am not in a relationship. Currently I'm flirting with one guy (Yay! I'm talking to people!) so I probably send him Valentine's wishes. And of course like every year, I'm going to make a little gifts for my mother and my sister, being it sweets, flowers or some cute drawings, I don't know myself yet. (If I will draw something there is highly possibility that I will publish it here ^^') I don't celebrate my single status 'cause for me it isn't exactly something that should be celebrated. Every person in the world have their soulmate and finding her or him is in my opinion very important. To celebrate Valentines somehow here, meaning in the Internet, I might write something with the holiday accent. Or not, depends on my mood :P
And that's it.
Introduction
Jan. 30th, 2010 10:44 amSince this is my first post here I would like to say something about myself.
My name is Sylwia but I prefer when people call me by one of my nicknames which are: Kiriana, Caia, Kai, Kairin or Akai. I'll be turning 18 on June 1 and I'm not really extremely excited about this. I don't know what people see in being an adult 'cause for me that's not really all that fun. Beside having an access to all the porn naturally. And while I'm on the subject I admit that I'm closet pervert and I'm not really ashamed of it. I probably have that in my blood 'cause my dearest dad (who is a jackass that run away with his lover) is a pervert too.
I'm deeply interested in Japanese culture which started with the obsession over anime and manga (that obsession is currently working too). And then was yaoi.... Oh yeah, the heaven for someone like me, all that boys... OK, I'll stop now. I'm not really into any of music genres, I listen to what catches my attention, but I have to admit that I have a soft spot for Dir en Grey, The Gazette, F.T Island and Leona Lewis. My favourite mangaka is Naono Bohra whose works I adore so much it even hurts sometimes.
Recently I saw a film "Kiss Kiss Bang Bang" and fell in love with it. Decided that Robert Downey Jr. is my favourite actor too. Don't have the fav actress.
I have a naughty habit of scribbling in my school notebooks (generally aliens or some weird creatures). I'm lazy too. Very lazy. And unfortunately I have a slight agoraphobia and social anxiety disorder (go look it up in the wikipedia if you don't know what it is) what doesn't help me with people. I don't have friends, I posses few acquaintances but they're not really my friends. I like to write and sometimes draw. And while my writing works are pretty good my drawings suck. And I'm not being modest here. The only thing that I know how to draw are stick figures. Yeah, you can laugh now.
My great passion though is reading. I have a good collection of books and I like reading in the internet (fics are my drug xP) but I have a light aversion to the bad writing (Oh, how I hate you Stephanie M.!) and can be mean when commenting on such work. That's why I usually comment only these writings that I really liked.
I hate arrogant people, people who lies (especially when they lie about me) and Gremlins. That's right - Gremlins. I can't understand what people like in them. I saw the film when I was just a kid and hated it, I still do.
One last thing - I have an unhealthy aversion to tall people. I'm quite short and it irritates me when standing near someone who is more than 10 centimetres taller than me.
I'm weird person and that's probably next reason why people don't like me. In this journal I will post the events from my life (when I feel like it), some of my writings and drawings (the good ones) and maybe some things that amuse or interest me.
For now it's all, that was long.
My name is Sylwia but I prefer when people call me by one of my nicknames which are: Kiriana, Caia, Kai, Kairin or Akai. I'll be turning 18 on June 1 and I'm not really extremely excited about this. I don't know what people see in being an adult 'cause for me that's not really all that fun. Beside having an access to all the porn naturally. And while I'm on the subject I admit that I'm closet pervert and I'm not really ashamed of it. I probably have that in my blood 'cause my dearest dad (who is a jackass that run away with his lover) is a pervert too.
I'm deeply interested in Japanese culture which started with the obsession over anime and manga (that obsession is currently working too). And then was yaoi.... Oh yeah, the heaven for someone like me, all that boys... OK, I'll stop now. I'm not really into any of music genres, I listen to what catches my attention, but I have to admit that I have a soft spot for Dir en Grey, The Gazette, F.T Island and Leona Lewis. My favourite mangaka is Naono Bohra whose works I adore so much it even hurts sometimes.
Recently I saw a film "Kiss Kiss Bang Bang" and fell in love with it. Decided that Robert Downey Jr. is my favourite actor too. Don't have the fav actress.
I have a naughty habit of scribbling in my school notebooks (generally aliens or some weird creatures). I'm lazy too. Very lazy. And unfortunately I have a slight agoraphobia and social anxiety disorder (go look it up in the wikipedia if you don't know what it is) what doesn't help me with people. I don't have friends, I posses few acquaintances but they're not really my friends. I like to write and sometimes draw. And while my writing works are pretty good my drawings suck. And I'm not being modest here. The only thing that I know how to draw are stick figures. Yeah, you can laugh now.
My great passion though is reading. I have a good collection of books and I like reading in the internet (fics are my drug xP) but I have a light aversion to the bad writing (Oh, how I hate you Stephanie M.!) and can be mean when commenting on such work. That's why I usually comment only these writings that I really liked.
I hate arrogant people, people who lies (especially when they lie about me) and Gremlins. That's right - Gremlins. I can't understand what people like in them. I saw the film when I was just a kid and hated it, I still do.
One last thing - I have an unhealthy aversion to tall people. I'm quite short and it irritates me when standing near someone who is more than 10 centimetres taller than me.
I'm weird person and that's probably next reason why people don't like me. In this journal I will post the events from my life (when I feel like it), some of my writings and drawings (the good ones) and maybe some things that amuse or interest me.
For now it's all, that was long.
